May Mourning

I was emailing a friend I hadn't spoken to in a few months and was trying to sum up my May and I realized it was definitely full of melancholy and mourning. First there were my beloved Cavs stinking up the joint and ultimately exiting in the second round of the NBA playoffs. Optimistic as I try to be that LeBron will re-sign with the Cavs, I just have a sneaking suspicion that he will not and we will be back to square one.

Then, last night was the finale of Lost, which has definitely been one of my favorite shows since it came on the air 6 years ago. I'm a diehard, not like most people I know who caught on to the show via DVD or online airings at some point after its debut.

I remember reading this article a few months ago about the five types of Lost fans. I'm not entirely sure which category I fit in (a hybrid, to be sure), but I do know that I've run into many of the Catching-Up-on-DVD Set and had many "awkward, one-sided conversations" with people who have questions or want to talk about things that had happened up to a certain point. Once you've watched for years, it's hard to distinguish the exact order that things were revealed and it's a show that really works best if there are no spoilers. One of my coworkers just started at the beginning of the series last month and we attempted to have one of these conversations last week. It was tough but I won't lie that I kind of liked having more information than these other fans.

On Sunday, before the finale, I decided to rewatch some (or part of some) of my favorite episodes. I am definitely a diehard fan but I'm not one to watch and rewatch and rewatch the same episodes over and over. But on Sunday, I watched parts of maybe 8 or 9 episodes. It's funny because after I did that, I came across this article ranking every single Lost episode from worst to best. And wouldn't you know - all the episodes I watched ranked in the top fifteen. I guess I'm on the same page as that author.

Anyway, then there was the finale. I know a lot of people were clamoring to have all of their questions answered but I honestly didn't really have many left. One of my friends wanted answers about how certain things worked - like the science behind it. But the show is a science fiction show so I feel like the best thing to do when watching science fiction is to suspend some reality (hence, the fiction part). You just aren't going to get specific answers on how time travel works because it isn't actually possible! I was mostly curious to see what these flash sideways that showed up this season were and I'm happy with what they were revealed to be. But it's also very sad. I feel really sad that it's all over.

I've read a TON of articles & reviews about the show today, though, and I'm apparently in the minority. I really liked most of the final episode and thought it seemed pretty straightforward. I had no confusion when it all ended; I was just melancholy that the characters were gone. I guess it shouldn't surprise me that people seemed to not understand the finale or were reading much more into it because really that's what many did the entire run of the show.

I have nothing more profound to say but it's just odd that two things that preoccupied a lot of my time in the last few months both came to an end within weeks of each other. I know this sounds melodramatic but I feel like there is a huge hole in my heart for now and I feel like it won't get refilled soon.